The hardest thing to trust

I often wondered when I saw certain people who seemed to have what I wanted say that they just gave all that they could and was blessed with their abundance.

What? They gave all that they could and then they received?

“What principle is this?” I asked.

I thought it was about me “getting” my abundance. I couldn’t imagine just giving and giving. I thought once I gave it away it was gone forever. After all, men are just in life for them self.

Then something changed for me. I learned that this principle might be true.

Then I had that moment of test, “I’m on the edge of the cliff and if I want to fly, I have to jump off.”

I had to trust in something I couldn’t see. I’ve learned it’s called faith.

I grew up with the attitude that I couldn’t really trust anyone. Now, at the edge of the cliff, I had to bury that belief and jump.

Thankfully, I didn’t die after I jumped. I was scared though. I still am.

Have I successfully executed my test? Have I received more than I’ve given like people have shared had happened to them?

Yes, I have. I have been rewarded with self worth. I have been rewarded with the belief that I’m worthy of being the person who can be trusted. I’m equal in every way with all men and that abundance can be mine.

Imagine that? It’s all about trust. I learned that the reason I couldn’t trust this principle or trust others is because I didn’t trust myself.

Today I do trust. I don’t trust man. I trust the Creator of all. The more I give, the more I receive. In that order is the only way to make it work. That is the test.

Will it be scary for you at the edge of that cliff?

Is love ever extortion?

I have a man I admire who recently sent this email to me:

“If love is something that has to be earned or worked for in a relationship, then it’s not love. It’s extortion.” MS

Love that is “conditional” is not love. Only love that is “unconditional” is love. Conditional love is based on an insecurity. A codependency with others.

He told me of what he thought love was in his own family.

He attends church every Sunday with his wife and family. He doesn’t care for much of what goes on with the religion because as he put it, “I love Christ. Christ loves me. Religion seems to teach that Christ will only love me if I do or act a certain way. I know Christ. And the Christ I know loves me unconditionally.” But he attends because his wife is devout and wants to unconditionally support her and his son.

His son loves karate. He can’t stand karate. He goes to karate class with his son and wants him to be the best karate master ever. Or at least until  his son changes his mind.

He doesn’t care if his son wants to play video games all day. As he said, “I just want him to be the best video game player ever. I’m going to teach my son to love himself for who he is by unconditionally loving him for who he is.”

He believes God loves him regardless of how he acts. That God would never turn his back on him even if he did the worse things. He learned unconditional love from God and is applying that in his life with those he cares for.

I’ve felt a kinship to him the first day I met him. I could tell he accepted me unconditionally and he didn’t even know me. He was authentic and shared openly what he believed. He’s vulnerable and meek.

Then he said the most profound lesson he had learned in life.

You can’t unconditionally love others unless you unconditionally love yourself.